What will you do if every time you wake up you have a hangover?

What will you do if you still see the same old faces in you dreams?

What will you do if all these won't seem to pass?

我早已将痛苦当尘埃。

爱情这东西是没的勉强的东西。一切顺其自然就好。

要知道，满足就好。人懂得满足，自然就开心。

就算曾经有二百多段“感情”那怎样？很威风吗？快乐过神仙吗?

If i love someone, i'm devoted to her. One soulmate is enough.

I'm not perfect, but it's okay.^^

I'm just a selfish and bad person. I don't deserve nothing at all.

Do you know what's worth fighting for and not worth dying for? I'm crying when i'm writing this. I dunno what's goin on but my mind tells me that i can't forgive myself neither can i forget her. I didn't know i could let the feelings take over me but it just did. Now recall back, i wanted to die that day but something tells me that if i really try suicide I'm just neglecting my responsibilities and letting everyone down but I CAN'T MOVE ON!!! It's not desperation it's the loss of someone you really want to spend your life with. I knew she had reasons, reasons that she could'nt tell me directly and reasons that i may not understand for the rest of my life. I forced her away from me. It was all my fault just because of anger and obsession. I really want her back. I fought, i went all the way to see her, but it's just not worth dying for because if i die i may never even see her anymore. It's not about moving on or not it's the loss of the one that really matters to you for the rest of your life.